Sort of the postscript to the White Collar Punk album.
lyrics
When I tried with all my might, I failed you
I can never do just what you want me to do
Make me feel so wrong, you know you've done it before
Always threatening to open up the door
To the others I must remain silent
And so my thoughts turn inward to self-violence
Know I must be strong, I know I've done it before
But I think this time I'm headed out the door
*Chorus*
I wonder if you know
I wonder if you've felt how you make me feel
I wonder if you've felt how I feel about you
When I wake in the morning, heart pounding
My resolve is gone and my will floundering
I know it won't be long, I face it without remorse
Only so much time before I'm out the door
For the wound you cause there's no ointment
Therapy requires to have an appointment
If they won't call back, you know I have no recourse
Question: will I jump, or will I have to be pushed
*Chorus*
I wonder if you know
I wonder if you've felt how you make me feel
I wonder if you've felt how I feel about you
*SOLO BRIDGE*
I guess now it's over, I'm fired
In my brain it won't stop, I am so tired.
I wake up every day, and then I scream myself hoarse.
My marriage to work now feels like divorce.
Slowly I find calm in the calamity.
Understand my job is not the measure of me.
Always felt so wrong, because it never was right.
Opened up my eyes, and now I see the light.
credits
from The Drama,
track released March 22, 2007
Timon Marmex
T. B. Trzepacz
The lead singer of punk band Camp Cope ventures into romantic synth-pop territory, tempering slick arrangements with bare sentiment.
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